"The words that left unspoken"
I could still recall, those memories of you,
The joy and all your laughter,
The love that we've been through.
and I still can't believe you're gone...
I don't want to remember,
The things we used to do,
I don't want to hear those songs,
All the things that reminds me of you.
I don't wanna feel the pain in my heart anymore!
Talking to myself, for reasons I can't find.
Finding out why everything went wrong.
I've been trying to hold.
the tears from falling down on my cheeks,
I just dunno if I could still go on.
I wanted you to stay,
The tears began to show,
You said you care for me,
But then you have to go
And now I know, you're gone.
ME
Shane?
1st Mar
Singapore Youth Olympic Games Organising Committee
分手都已過了那麼久 現在也有自已的生活
我不能像妳這樣 說分了就忘 我這樣是堅強
還是忘了愛的勉強 過去不想 全部隱藏
就試著遺忘
Seriously missing you badly
My Story
Friday, September 29, 2006
14:11
Blogged by.. shane @ 14:11
TIRED~
SO TIRED!!
SICK AND TIRED OF LIFE..
went clubbing AGAIN!
stone there.
smoove and the second level was closed.
cus main arena is R&B ma..
saw vivian and gang there..
hahas
the most STUPID thing i feel is that:
i actually wanted to get a bung's no..
hahas..
feel so DUMB!!
sighs~
what's wrong with me man?!
but cant deny that she's cute and she's a pretty bung lo..
hahas..
well..
shane is lost..
will never be back again..
good thing?
or is this just the beginning?
actually..
this served as a experience to me lo
...no promises..
though promises is meant to be broken...
to me..
i will try my very best not to break it..
and most of the time..
i've made it..
but for this one and last time..
i'm gonna move on in life..
and leave all those memories behind..
in fact..
when we were together,
doing things that we love.
Every time you're near
I feel like I’m in heaven, feeling high
I don’t want to let go, girl.
I just need you to know girl.
(BUT THIS TIME..I'M GOING TO LET GO!!)
I don’t wanna run away,
(SO I SHALL FACE IT)
you’re the one I need tonight,
(NOT ANYMORE?)
No promises..
garfield!!!
I MISS YOU..
oops..
smile..
Will these make me feel better?
Tuesday, September 26, 2006
21:17
Blogged by.. shane @ 21:17
today is a tiring day for me..
went to three stupid places..
then on my way back..
i heard this song:
I'm sorry I didn't mean to call
but I couldn't fight it
I guess I was weak and couldn't even hide it
and so I surrender just to hear your voice
I know how many times I said I'm gonna to live with out you
and maybe someone else is standing there beside you
but there's something baby that you need to know
that deep inside me I feel like I'm dying
I have to see you it's all that I'm asking.
Vida, give me back my fantasies
the courage that I need to live
the air that I breath
carino mio, my world becomes so empty
my day's are so cold and lonely
and each night I taste
the purest of pain.
I wish I could tell you I'm feeling better every day
that it didn't hurt me when you walked away
but to tell you the truth I can't find my way
and deep inside me I feel like I'm dying
I have to see you it's all that I'm asking.
Vida, give me back...
nice songs..
kinda have many flashbacks again..
sighs~
COME ON SHANE..
GET IT OVER AND DONE WITH...
you can de..
baby is there to support you..
do it for yourself..
and not others!!
this is my life..
gonna do it for myself!!!
i'm so tired..
cause..
i went to swim!!!
hahas..
30 laps wor..
TIRED!!!
SIGHS~
Will these make me feel better?
Blogged by.. shane @ 00:20
THANKS BABY..
for spending time with me..
you did not leave me when i needed someone lo..
REALLY THANK YOU!!!
though i may look as if i'm alright..
but deep down..
i still feel the hurt that she had given me..
i really don't understand..
WHY?
WHY MUST IT BE ME??
WHY WHY WHY???
who can tell me?
everynight..
i CRIED myself to sleep..
and when I tried to open my eyes
I try HARD to see
but I’m blinded by the white light
I can’t remember how
I can’t remember why
I’m lying here tonight
And I can’t stand the pain
And I can’t make it go away
No I can’t stand the pain
How could this HAPPEN to me
I made my mistakes
I’ve got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna SCREAM
How could this happen to me
Everybody’s screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I’m slipping off the edge
I’m hanging by a thread
I wanna START this OVER AGAIN
So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
And I can’t explain what happened
And I can’t erase the things that I’ve done
i simply feel like a JERK!!
nothing matters?
or i just cant matter anymore?
like what baby said..
let go doesn't mean i don't love her anymore..
i ONLY wanna see her happy..
if he is the one whom can make her happy..
there's nothing i can do le..
so the best is to:
LET GO!!!
said is easier than done..
ACTION SPEAKS LOUDER THAN WORDS..
open up my heart?
and say what's on my mind?
i know we used to been through alot with her..
but..
i really feel that i need someone..
i cant speak my mind now..
it hurts to talk about it..
though i went to esplanade..
a very nice place to chill..
but..
all i can think of was the days i have had with her..
i really missed her alot!!
ARGH~
well..
as i think back..
it's a good thing that i'm learning to let go!
ALL I NEED IS TIME!!!
TIME TIME TIME!!!!!
i know i can do it..
just whether i wanna do it or not..
right baby?
baby garfield..
all i can say is..
still THANK YOU!!!
thanks for being there for me.
thanks for the effort to make me smile..
and you made it..
i smile..
you made my day..
do rest early k?
take care lots..
nites..
sweet dreams..
sleep tite..
hugs..
*misses..
Will these make me feel better?
Saturday, September 23, 2006
19:51
Blogged by.. shane @ 19:51
sighs..
it's been another day..
sadded..
after all that baby have DONE for me..
i guess..
i really have to move on in life..
though deep down..
i know i still feel for her..
but as i think back..
it's not WORTH IT AT ALL!!!
cause it's her who don't TREASURE ME..
and not me.
so why BOTHER??
right?
though i know i cant handle a COMPLICATED HEART NOW..
but..
with the TIME..
and the SUPPORT i have from baby and frens..
i know..
I'M GONNA MAKE IT!!!
like what irene said..
not worth it la..
she is just taking me to prvoke the guy she like..
i should FACE IT and MOVE ON..
no point CLINGING on..
she is the one who ask me to wait..
and if i wait..
i would have MISSED ALL THE GOOD ONES AROUND ME..
hahas..
right to say so?
YUP!!!
(it hurts though)
but for sure..
TIME CAN HEAL MY WOUND..
AND I WILL BE FINE AFTER THAT!!!
that is what i want..
if irene can forgo a 3 years plus relationship..
why cant i forgo a 8 months plus relationship..
right?
mabe this is what i had owed her in my past life..
and it's time to return all of it!!
i will learn how to not think of you again!!
i've given so much..
and all that SERVED as an experience for me..
i rather go miss baby la!!
at least baby is one whom i know i can turn to..
THANKS baby..
look forward..
carry on with life..
there i am..
will be having someone dear to me..
(though there is one out there)
but..
CAN SEE, CANNOT TOUCH!!!
hahas..
IT'S NOT THE END OF THE WORLD!!
LIFE GOES ON AND ON...
baby..
guess you must be enjoying yourself today ba..
which is very good!!
err..
tell you something..
(don't tell anyone k?)
SHHH......
hahas..
I MISS YOU!!
*hugs...
Will these make me feel better?
Tuesday, September 19, 2006
13:05
Blogged by.. shane @ 13:05
SIANZ~~
i'm so bored at BSU now!
nothing better to do..
sighs..
well..
yesterday went to watch 'Singapore Dreaming' with baby.
nice show indeed..
it lasted for full 2 hours la..
sometimes..
this kinda movie will let me REFLECT back on what i have been doing in life..
how i have been living it without knowing that i'm wasting my time on certain things..
often,
we try to get things beyond our control..
or should i say that..
we often DON'T KNOW WHAT WE WANT IN LIFE..
we are lost in the midst of trying to get things we know we cant get..
hahas..
(start of my old grandfather story again)
hahas..
human beings are just so CONTRADICTING..
we try to be thing big...
and yet..
don't know what we really want from it..
life SUCK!!
how are we gonna live it fully depend on how we look at life..
if we have a POSITIVE mindset,
we are able to see what is in front of us..
but..
if we are NEGATIVE..
no matter how big our dreams can be,
we still end up in square one..
STUPID RIGHT?
hahas..
'if' is the middle of LIFE..
there are too many 'ifs' in life le..
we should know that if we know that certain things will happen to us.
then why bother still allow ourselves to drop into that trap?
human ah human beings..
anyway..
i'm also like that...
sometimes..
i just DON'T KNOW where i should go and what i should do..
trying hard to focus on certain stuff..
but..
somehow or rather..
i cant do that..
my mind is running WILD..
maybe tiredness have filled me..
too tired to think again..
i don't know..
right now..
i just wanna give myself a BREAK..
a break from everything..
esp TEP..
waste time..
all bull shit..
RUBBISH~~
ARGH..
Will these make me feel better?
Sunday, September 17, 2006
20:09
Blogged by.. shane @ 20:09
DAMN!!!
WHAT THE FUCK YOU WANT?
you think it's EASY to run the kitchen when you are short-handed?
moreover..
today is the FIRST and OFFICAL time that i take over the production caller position..
i'm still under TRAINING..
it's not easy to do that..
i'm stressed!!
i'm blur!!
first,
new crew at the grill station..
one auntie running two stations..
my crew leader, zhi xin, running here and there to help out..
i'm doing my part to listen to the orders and to wrap them..
now the question is:
how many counter crews we have?
5- 6!!
so many of them against 3 experience crews in the kitchen?
what the!!!
i remain my cool..
i keep my mouth shut..
i endure the scolding and chasing of products..
ended up..
i still kana the scolding from YOU!!
DAMN!!
sighs~
i wanted so badly to break down just now..
but i ren..
i must show them that the kitchen crews can still build up the products de..
and i did!!!
sad day..
i thought it will be over..
who knows..
she called and f me upside down again!!
it's not my fault..
yes..
many may think that i'm a lousy production caller..
but have they spare a thought for me?
i started ONLY today..
i need practice..
i need support..
i need encouragement..
AND NOT SCOLDING!!!
if you think you can do a better job than me..
go AHEAD!!
you will have a taste of it!!
i have my limits too..
YOU..
being the senior crew at the counter
your fellow peers will expect you to be better and one who can be look up too..
but i guess they are all WRONG!!
cause you too..
cant handle that crowd and the complaints..
being at the front line..
you OUGHT to know how to handle them..
you are still young..
i can understand what you guys go through..
but how many actually understand how i feel??
ARGH~
this feeling isn't good..
i feel so LOUSY now..
i feel that i'm a BIG FAILURE..
i feel that i cant handle such a lunch crowd..
how can the managers give me the promotion?
i don't think i can make a good crew leader out of it..
SADDENED!!
really feel like crying now..
it seems like no one uderstand the stress i've gone thought today..
the kind of look they give me..
stating:
you're a lousy PC and stuff..
this feeling is really BAD!!!
Will these make me feel better?
Thursday, September 14, 2006
22:48
Blogged by.. shane @ 22:48
PISSED~
SO PISSED OF!!!
bloodly hell..
work so hard just to get my event going..
and all i need now is the BUDGET!!
initially,
my budget was $1,600..
YOU said it was too HIGH..
fine..
i revised it to $1,200..
again..YOU said it was STILL TOO HIGH..
it's ok..
so i revised it again..
this time, with the collection of $20 per team..
my budget is $539++..
once i email you..
keeping my fingers cross..
YOU DISAPPOINT ME!!
YOU said that the director doesn't want us to collect any money..
what the!!!
YOU were the ONE asking me to collect money from the students..
i told your suggestions into ACTION!!
NOW??!!
YOU ARE TELLING ME TO REVISED MY BUDGET AGAIN?!
WHAT THE HELL YOU WANT?
IF YOU ARE SO NOT INTERESTED IN MY EVENT..
JUST TELL ME OFF..
NEED NOT MAKE ME WORK SO HARD!!
YOU THINK IT'S FUNNY TO REVISED AGAIN AND AGAIN?
SO WHAT IF YOU ARE HAVING YOUR IPP?
I'M HAVING MY ATTACHMENT TOO..
i'm so disappointed in YOU!!
i look up to YOU when i was an OGL..
now?
FORGET ABOUT IT BOY!!!
sighs..
i'm bee so paitent in waiting for your reply and stuff..
now..
you are telling me this..
how am i suppose to continue with my event?
i'm trying DAMN HARD to do it well..
though my team did help me..
but..
it's still NOT ENOUGH!!
i know my expectations are HIGH..
do bear with it alright?
in my mind..
i just want my event to run well..
that's all i ask for..
CANT THAT BE DONE?
sighs..
or rather should i said that i'm USELESS!!
i cant get a simple budget done!
i just cant get things right..
i'm just soO USELESS!!!
who can give me advice on what i should do next?
i'm totally lost..
lost in the world of the event preparation..
i know i should stand strong..
cause 28 people are depending on me on this event..
i cant let these 28 people down..
they are my classmates and friends..
feel like giving up..
but i know i WILL NEVER!!!
God..
help me!!
teach me what i should do to make it right again..
sighs..
sad..
very sad..
that's why..
i swam for 30 laps.though my back hurts a little..
did PT for baby..
at least can get my mind off track awhile..
but on my way home..
it goes back to square one AGAIN!!
THINK THINK THINK!!!
ARGH~~~
Will these make me feel better?
Wednesday, September 13, 2006
21:04
Blogged by.. shane @ 21:04
sighs..
today is LONGday wor..
woke up at 0545..
then went for the last few outlets of the mystery shopping..
DAMN TIRED~
went back to school..
then went for meeting for my adventure relay..
abit DISAPPOINTING!!
cause i thought the whole class will be there..
but ended up..
one tell me this..
one tell me that..
say cannot attend the meeting and stuff..
then i SIANZ la..
SADDENED!!
then have to do everything by myself..
aud say wanna help..
then end up also like don't wanna help..
mayb she's sick?
sighs~
thank God.
that there are still some classmates who are willing to help..
thank you guys for the GREAT EFFORT!!!
i really APPRECIATE it!!
well..
there are still a LONG way to go..
whether it will be a SUCCESSFUL one?
i really DON'T KNOW!!
*SCARE.WORRIES.STRESSED*
who can give me a hand in planning this event?
i'm like left with only ONE MONTH?
SHIT!!!
so scare that my effort will go DOWN the drain..
so worried that there's NOT enough time..
so stressed about the paper work and APPROVAL of the budget..
ARGH~~
NO TIME to slack le..
BSU also got hell lot of stuff awaiting for me to do..
and i will NEVER leave my team alone!!
(GOD!!WHY ONE DAY ONLY HAVE 24 HOURS??)
hahas..
[TIME MANAGEMENT IS WHAT I NEED NOW!!!]
feel like going for a BREAK now..
but can i?
i CANT!!
cause i CANT leave my event just like that..
i CANT leave my team alone!!
i CANT leave my work alone..
furthermore..
i just went back to work..
sighs..
hope i'm able to go thru this smoothly..
tired!!
time to pack my stuff and SLEEP!!!
hahas..
garfield..
rest early k?
see ya tml..
*misses..
Will these make me feel better?
Tuesday, September 12, 2006
22:18
Blogged by.. shane @ 22:18
well..
today is a TIRING day for me..
ha..
went for a SWIM in the morning..
20 LAPS..
after that,
hold MEETINGS with my team..
after TEP,
went to bukit batok that area to do my mystery shopping..
what PISSED me off was:
i had to wait for HALF AN HOUR before my 178 come..
if not..
i could have REACHED home before 2000hours..
SIANZ~
as i was doing my things..
prepare for tml's meeting and stuff..
this song:
TILL THE END..
reminds me of the good OLD days..
All these PRECIOUS moments
With you by my side
Must be a GIFT from heaven
That's HOLDING me all night
I don't know HOW
I FOUND you
I'm THANKFUL that I have
Now that I have a love so true
To HOLD, to KEEP, to SHARE
In my heart
I can no longer hold inside
All of the love I USED TO hide
I'll ALWAYS be with you until the very end
In this world there in NO place
I'd rather be
You are my LIFE, my SOUL, my GIRL
You through it all I know
That you've come to see that you're the one till the end
All my friends around me
Say you'd be gone too soon
Baby
I'm gonna make them see
We've found our way back home
true enough..
i CANT make you stay by my side..
but who CARES now?!
hahas..
I DON'T GIVE A DAMN!!
i should be CONTENTED with what i have now..
with my projects on the TRACK..
with all the GOOD friends around me..
giving me the SUPPORT i need..
so why should i care about her again?
right?
like what baby said:
'good things are meant to be kept in memories..'
at times..
it's good to think about it..
at least it will bring a SMILE on your face..
hahas..
tml will be a long day too..
gonna wake up DARN early..
at 0545..
cause i decided to go for the morning shift..
so that i can REST during the evening..
hahas..
hope tml will be a fast one..
cause i need to rush back for a MEETING at 1030hours..
i'm hoping that the class will give me their support too..
for my adventure relay to go smoothly..
baby..
how's training today?
hope ya did not put too much stress on your hand..
xiao xin wor..
do rest early k?
nites..
sweet dreams..
sleep tight..
see ya tml..
*hugs..
Will these make me feel better?
Sunday, September 10, 2006
21:15
Blogged by.. shane @ 21:15
WAH..
today is a tiring day for me..
actually work untill 12 only..
due to the circumctances whereby we down crew,
so irene asked me to help out lor..
moreover today..
she's the only manager around..
haha..
work like MAD dog sia..
damn tiring..
then my back aches too..
but it's alright..
at least i make myself useful by serving customers..
hahas..
well..
though i was on the same shift as her today..
i hardly talk to her lor..
good inprovement?
haha..
i don't know..
i feel that no point talking to her so much lor..
cause not WORTH it lor..
actually..
when i decided to LET go..
i WILL..
but all i need is TIME..
moreover..
baby told me off yesterday..
i mean..
she was right too..
i shouldn't be so soft-hearted towards such person lo..
afterall..
moving forward in life..
isnt a bad thing..
cause..
if i don't move on in life..
i'm no different from a frog in a well..
can only see part of the sky..
i finally understand what the following mean:
'don't't CRY when the SUN is gone..
cause the TEARS wouldn't let you see the STARS..
God gave us BURDENS ADN SHOULDERS..
so we ask not for LIGHTER burden
but..
for a BROADER shoulder!!'
I will find my way,
I want a different way
After the wind and rain
There'll be a brand new day
因为小时候,受伤有人心疼,失落有人安慰
现在遇到困难,自己就要学会面对
I will find my way,
I want a different way
Nothing can stop me now,
No matter what they say
困难要用我的坚强和努力勇敢面对
现在用心去追 感觉就对
I will find my way
一直就这样
找我的方向
不理会别人
奇怪的眼光直到有一天
我忽然发现
梦想已经在实现等待快点过去多少个明天
看着自己已经慢慢长大一点一点
我的生活应该让我自己学会掌握
相信自己
不怕风雨再多
will i really find the way?
i guess i will?
rite baby?
hahas..
tml will be a long LONG day..
sian..
tired..
what to do..
attachment ma..
k la..
need to send out emails to my fellow team members le..
baby..
do take care k?
let me know what the doc said tml k?
rest early..
*hugs..
Will these make me feel better?
Saturday, September 09, 2006
20:36
Blogged by.. shane @ 20:36
SADDENED!!
WHY IS THIS HAPPENING TO ME?
kana con while working..
then got voilation letter from my manager lor..
sighs..
felt so stressed up la..
cause so AFRAID that it would affect my promotion..
moreover..
this is the FIRST time i'm given such letter!!
ARGH~
no mood at all lor..
sian half!
WHY ME?
it seems like things isnt going my way for the past week..
first was sally..
she seems to not get out of my life..
everytime i ignore her and stuff
she would come crying to me!
then i was soft-hearted to let her in again..
STUPID ME!!!
then was the con man, the voilation letter, and police report..
felt so USELESS!!!
wanting so bad to get things done nicely..
but it ended up otherwise..
since i've DECIDED to let her go and focus on my work..
but why cant she understand that?
like what my manager said:
'she's not the one for you..
she have been stopping you to progress in your work..
since she have him,
why not just let go and focus on your work?'
i have been doing that..
but guess my EMOTIONS are taking control over me..
sadded..
i'm sOo STRESSED UP now..
WHY cant i just do my work?
WHY is that so that everything is blocking me from moving forward?
WHY??
ARGH~
SIGHS~
SOB SOB~
i'm so FAN now..
i'm so LOST now..
i'm so CONFUSED now..
I DON'T KNOW what am i suppose to do next..
wondering should i just transfer store or stay on to show my professionalism in my work?
I REALLY DON'T KNOW..
well..
finally baby is BACK!!
so happy..
but i showed that i'm sad rather than happy..
cause i really don't know how to smile..
though i wanted to tell baby how much i missed her..
but..
too stressed over the voilation letter i guess..
so long as baby is happy can le..
whatever happend to me..
doesnt really MATTER that much afterall..
thanks baby..
for the cap and the zhuzhu..
i appreciate that..
garfield..
guess you must be tired from the trip..
do rest well k?
take care lots..
SIGHS~
Will these make me feel better?
Thursday, September 07, 2006
20:57
Blogged by.. shane @ 20:57
sighs..
baby..
i'm soO down!!!
how i wish you were beside me just now..
today is just NOT my day!!
i broke down today in BSU..
sadded..
thank God, aud was beside me..
sally called..
said wanna meet me to go store..
then i was like ok lo..
so i told her to meet in store..
then she told me she need to meet her friends too..
so i said go ahead lo..
it's alright with me..
i will go store myself..
den she hang up on me!!!
den i returned call...
she hang me up AGAIN and AGAIN!!!
I COULD NO LONGER TAKE IT!!!
I NEED A BREAK!!
I WANNA GET OUT OF HER CONTROL..
but it seems that her control is soO STRONG!!!
ARGH~
*sob sob..
i'm really very sick and tired of all these RUBBISH!!
HELP ME!!!
i off my phone since the moment i reached home..
a form of ISOLATING MYSELF?
from the world outside?
i don't know..
i'm CONFUSED..
i'm TIRED..
i'm LOST for sure..
she told her she had a crush on this guy who is younger than her.
at that SPUR moment when she told me,
my heart SANK..
but i still give her my encouragement..
i told her to FOLLOW her heart..
time to REALLY MOVE ON in life..
have been pausing her since 281105..
really feel like CRYING out loud!!
but can i?
everytime i think of breaking down..
i always REMEMBER what baby told me:
to HUG my tigger..
go to my bed and SHOUT into my pillow
and ALWAYS know that baby is THERE for me!!
till now..
i still REMEMBER that..
i will NEVER forget!!
it simply acts as a COMFORT to me..
esp when baby you are away..
THANKS..
though i cant STOP my mind from RUNNING wild..
i will try to focus my THOUGHTS on my job at BSU..
cause i've got a team of wonderful members..
esp clara(admin), shawn(deputy leader),daniel and khairul..
you guys are GREAT!!
hope you guys can give me(leader) your FULLEST SUPPORT..
baby..
another TWO more days to go!!
i really MISS you..
i really NEED you to be by my side..
i know i'm SELFISH..
i know i can NEVER have that dream come true..
but i just HOPE..
your PRESENCE will aLready mean comfort to me le..
garfield..
take care lots..
*hugs..
Will these make me feel better?
Wednesday, September 06, 2006
10:02
Blogged by.. shane @ 10:02
SADDED~
i was feeling soO DARN down yesterday night lor.
broke down and cry..
buried myself on my bed since 2000 hours..
don't wanna face the reality for that moment.
ISOLATED myself!
woke up at 2200 hours
ate some rice and back to sleep again.
for the moment,
i felt so RELAXED..
but on the other hand,
sally keep messging me..
she is like a BURDEN to me now..
i guess i did something very WRONG.
she ask if i wan her to wait for me..
den i told her i'm selfish and wanted her to wait for me..
but come to THINK about it..
if she wants to wait..
then SO BE IT!
it's her problem and NOT MINE!
right?
ha..
however,
i felt BAD in doing so..
cause it seems like i'm taking away her chances o getting to know more guys..
i felt soO BAD!
i felt soO GUILTY!
sighs..
as for today..
after the long nite REST,
i regained my energy..
here i am in A302a..
doing NOTHING but blogging..
hahas..
went for workshop at 0900 hours..
came back at 0930 and SLACK!
hahas..
gotta a msg from her again..
but it's regarding work..
i've SCORED 100 points for my mystery shopper..
so HAPPY..
first day back to work and produce good service?
i guess..
hahas..
WAH~
COOL~
hahas..
at least after 9 months plus of work,
i showed results..
though all the while my results are pretty good..
hahas..
just that this mystery shopping thingy let me move forward to GREATER heights in the F&B..
glad that my EFFORTS did not go down the drain lor..
though my face look like shit..
but at least people still appreicate my service..
gonna be a LONG LONG day ahead..
got a meeting at 1530 hours and a workshop AGAIN at 1600hours..
boring..
ARGH~
sian ah!!
garfield..
how's your hand?
do TAKE CARE lots k?
and have fun!
*hugs..
Will these make me feel better?
Tuesday, September 05, 2006
17:03
Blogged by.. shane @ 17:03
today only go school for half a day..
went for doctor's appointment..
quite happy..
cause doctor say another ONE MORE month back to sports!!!
cant wait to play my basketball and other sports..
WOOH~
den also no need to take the medical cert ALSO can leave singapore..
hahas..
however
today at BSU..
sadded..
went for workshop again..
conducted by jennifer tan..
BORING as usual..
end up fall asleep again..
ha..
we did a pair work..
quite fun..
cause we got all the time until 1600hours to hand in..
den we managed to finish within one hour..
hahas..
PRO rite?
ha..
as i was reading 'TODAY'
i realised that i hasn't been catching up with the recent news around..
felt so out-dated..
little did i know that actually many things are happening within a split seconds..
people around me are leaving one by one..
due to diseases and fatal accidents..
SADDED..
under the 'VOICES' section,
there was this article saying:
'GOOD PRODUCT, BAD SERVICE = NO DEALl!'
in the little island we are living in..
many feel that we singaporeans are well-educated and have good customer service..
ONLY a minority face the reality in knowing that we are NOT that CUSTOMER-ORIENTED.
hahas..
sometimes i wonder:
the governement emphaise on GOOD SERVICE..
however..
with all the advertising and stuff..
singaporeans seems to IGNORE it and portray a LOUSY image of us, singaporeans..
it's a SAD THING to say so..
what to do?
if we singaporeans don't understand what the government wants us to do to UPHOLD singapore's image..
then don't bother talking about having good services..
we ought to know what is right first before going that extra mile..
sianz..
sometimes how i wonder i'm not a singaporean..
hahas..
being in the F&B line..
i understand the importance of having GOOD CUSTOMER SERVICE..
at least i know how to respect my customers and give them the best i could to serve them..
cause i know happy customer = loyal customer..
k la..
enough of my preaching..
hahas.
another FOUR MORE DAYS TO GO!!
baby is coming back.
cant wait to see her again..
like i said..
ONE WEEK WITHOUT baby around to cheer me up..
hahas..
baby..
enjoy and take care of your hand k?
hugs
*misses..
Will these make me feel better?
Monday, September 04, 2006
17:17
Blogged by.. shane @ 17:17
SIGH!
BORING DAY AT BSU!!
nothing better to do lo..
sianz..
was quite HAPPY just now..
cause baby REPLIED me..
so afraid to msg her..
cause ex to msg ma..
glad that she's enjoying herself lo..
as for me?
BORING.BORING.BORING~~
rotting at A302a lor..
this week is nothing but WORKSHOPS!!!
everyday..
there's TWO(2) WORKSHOPS wor..
sadded!!!
so LOST here..
though made a few new friends..
shawn, daniel, jack jack and fiona lor..
SLACK is what we can do?
ha..
guess gonna find something to do ba..
read books?
read comics?
blog?
stone?
I DON'T KNOW!!
argh~
no baby to cheer me up wor..
SADDED!!
aud busy with her humanlink stuff ma..
so i'm left ALONE lor..
sian.sian.sian!!
sally comes back to me again..
she was hoping that i will give each other another chance..
but i told her that just let time heal our pain lo..
cause there's no way for me to turn back the time..
even if i could..
i'm not sure if i wanna turn back to her..
i'm CONFUSED!!
after all that she had done..
however..
i still feel guilty and bad towards her..
it seems like all i know is to hurt her time and times again lo..
i'm soO bad!!
JERK.BASTARD.FREK??
i don't know..
ARGH~
baby..
can TELL me what to do?
can GIVE me advice?
i'm just TOO TIRED!!
too tired to think of it..
well..
come to think of it..
it seems like i OWE her de..
why?
WHY IS THIS SO?
WHAT HAVE I DONE WRONG?
WHY IS THIS HAPPENING TO ME AGAIN AND AGAIN?!!
sadded..
i'm just SO DOWN!!
*sob sob..
garfield..
take care lots k?
xiao xin wor..
wo hao xiang ni..
*hugs..
Will these make me feel better?
Sunday, September 03, 2006
18:09
Blogged by.. shane @ 18:09
AH~
i'm soO TIRED!!
after work,
went for a swim..
initially..
no ONE wants to acc me wor..
*SADDED!!!
then ended up
my cousin acc me there..
ha..
shane is swimming..
in all..
i swim 30laps!!
which is 1.5km!!
hahas..
though there are obstructions..
cause kids around are having their lessons..
don't really like it..
but what to do?
need to EXERCISE!!
hahas..
and here i am blogging..
so SHAGGED!!
sighs..
later gonna attend a wake..
my junior's grandfather passed away..
sad case..
how i wish time can stop here..
DON'T WANNA GO FOR ROUND 3 ATTACHMENT!!
BSU~~
sian lor..
know no one there..
moreover..
joan and helena will be away for TWO WEEKS!!!
leave me alone there..
time to make new friends?
ha..
i don't know..
dun feel like making any new friends now leh..
guess mayb i really need to step out of my COMFORT zone..
just finished dinner.
very FULL!!
hahas..
fat le..
hahas..
6 more days wor..
wondering if baby have taken her dinner???
hope everythin is fine over there..
esp the weather wor..
guess baby is enjoying herself ba.
which is good..
hahas..
time to go for the wake le..
sianz..
shall stop here..
garfield..
do take care lots k?
hugs..
Will these make me feel better?
Saturday, September 02, 2006
21:11
Blogged by.. shane @ 21:11
SIGH~
sadded!!
after sending baby off at the airport..
i don't know what happen to me..
can see that baby LOVES mummy alot wor..
so she bu de..
mummy oso abit she bu de ma..
hahas..
den me and aud was saying..
if we were going also..
shawn will be there to send her off..
den baby got mummy to send you off..
me?
NO ONE!!
even if my grandmother were to come down..
oso will be like sending me to the entrance and there they go off..
very sad case rite?
hahas..
baby..
i couldn't sleep the whole night wor.
i don't know why..
but everytime i close my eyes,
i cant get myself to slp..
was soO TIRED this morning while working..
den my BACK HURTS!!
what to do?
don't work den no income..
sighs..
today went for physio..
did all the body weight exercises..
den my core muscles was DAMN WEAK LA!!
argh~
cause din work out for the past two months ma..
so DIASPPOINTED IN MYSELF!!
after that went back straight and
was FLAT on my bed lor..
slept all the way until 5 plus..
turned on my laptop..
den gotta missed call..
wondering whose that??
cause it's a foreign no..
AH~
one week without baby to cheer me up wor..
guess baby must be enjoying herself there ba..
which is very GOOD!!
go and give yourself a break..
gonna go preapre my stuff for tml's work le..
sighs..
another day of ACHING!!
ha..
garfield..
i'll be waiting for you to be back..
i really miss you!!
*sob sob...
hugs..
Will these make me feel better?
Blogged by.. shane @ 21:11
SIGH~
sadded!!
after sending baby off at the airport..
i don't know what happen to me..
can see that baby LOVES mummy alot wor..
so she bu de..
mummy oso abit she bu de ma..
hahas..
den me and aud was saying..
if we were going also..
shawn will be there to send her off..
den baby got mummy to send you off..
me?
NO ONE!!
even if my grandmother were to come down..
oso will be like sending me to the entrance and there they go off..
very sad case rite?
hahas..
baby..
i couldn't sleep the whole night wor.
i don't know why..
but everytime i close my eyes,
i cant get myself to slp..
was soO TIRED this morning while working..
den my BACK HURTS!!
what to do?
don't work den no income..
sighs..
today went for physio..
did all the body weight exercises..
den my core muscles was DAMN WEAK LA!!
argh~
cause din work out for the past two months ma..
so DIASPPOINTED IN MYSELF!!
after that went back straight and
was FLAT on my bed lor..
slept all the way until 5 plus..
turned on my laptop..
den gotta missed call..
wondering whose that??
cause it's a foreign no..
AH~
one week without baby to cheer me up wor..
guess baby must be enjoying herself there ba..
which is very GOOD!!
go and give yourself a break..
gonna go preapre my stuff for tml's work le..
sighs..
another day of ACHING!!
ha..
garfield..
i'll be waiting for you to be back..
i really miss you!!
*sob sob...
hugs..
Will these make me feel better?
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