"The words that left unspoken"
I could still recall, those memories of you,
The joy and all your laughter,
The love that we've been through.
and I still can't believe you're gone...
I don't want to remember,
The things we used to do,
I don't want to hear those songs,
All the things that reminds me of you.
I don't wanna feel the pain in my heart anymore!
Talking to myself, for reasons I can't find.
Finding out why everything went wrong.
I've been trying to hold.
the tears from falling down on my cheeks,
I just dunno if I could still go on.
I wanted you to stay,
The tears began to show,
You said you care for me,
But then you have to go
And now I know, you're gone.
ME
Shane?
1st Mar
Singapore Youth Olympic Games Organising Committee
分手都已過了那麼久 現在也有自已的生活
我不能像妳這樣 說分了就忘 我這樣是堅強
還是忘了愛的勉強 過去不想 全部隱藏
就試著遺忘
Seriously missing you badly
My Story
Tuesday, October 24, 2006
19:41
Blogged by.. shane @ 19:41
ok..
i'm back..
after so many days of working..
i'm sick!!!
ohh..SHIT!!!
very very TIRED!!
what to do..
chiong for the two DOUBLE pay days lo..
don't even have the time to sit down until now..
actually i'm supposed to do my ICT lab presentation de..
but sean did it for me le..
hee..
so all i need is to compile everything into ppt lo..
like finally can blog again le..
well..
back to myself..
what i have been doing besides working..
err...
work and work and work lo..
fell sick for a week le lo..
flu and cough..
no voice oso..
hee..
then went out with my darling..
then ytd went up to funan to place my deposit for my new laptop..
before i went for dinner with them la..
shitty dinner lo..
sian half..
see her there..
thought could escape from it to meet baby and JL..
but ended up..
I CANT!!
SADDED!!
tomorrow will be another day..
might be meeting my juniors for breakfast..
tired sia..
well..
i'll be getting my laptop TOMORROW!!!
hahas..
so happy..
hope nothing will be wrong this time le..
scare..
hahas..
baby..
soOO many days din see you le wor..
wo hao xiang ni wor..
hope you also enjoyed yourself for the past few days...
cant wait to see ya wor..
but tomorrow don't have same lecture leh..
have to wait till thursday..
=(
anyway..
i simply miss you..
hugs..
see ya..
Will these make me feel better?
Tuesday, October 17, 2006
20:22
Blogged by.. shane @ 20:22
SIGHS~
this past TWO days wasn't good for me..
sadded..
need to deal with the STUPID SURVEY FORMS..
but for the past weeks..
many thoughts ran through my mind..
somehow..
will just think of her..
but its just memories only lo..
maybe frens will really be better off for the both of us..
as for my precious baby..
glad that JL and her is getting closer..
instead of getting jealous when baby told me about JL..
i was HAPPY for them..
i don't know why i feel this way too..
kinda funny..
many will get jealous when the one you like feel for the other party..
as for me..
i just feel happy for baby..
JL was there all the time..
he did not leave baby..
he's a MR. NICE GUY...
i feel happy for baby..
that JL finally told baby what he was thinking all these while..
i guess it really took him alot of COURAGE to say those words to baby..
good good..
JIAYOU BA!! JL..
baby..
i know you are not prepared for him..
just take your time..
rest assure that he will always be around JUST for you..
happy for you..
at least when i know you have such a good guy to take care of you..
i jiu fang xin le..
maybe it's time for me to find my queen of my heart?
NO!NO!NO!
not now.
just wanna be alone for the moment..
hahas..
at least i still got my bao bei baby to teng ma..
oops..
well..
all i want now is:
- see baby happy..
- see my frens through all the tough times..
- to get good results..
these are what i yearn for ba..
for my personal life..
i really don't know..
maybe work my butts off to buy a laptop, my W800i..
ARGH~
hope that all things will turn out well for me for this semester..
hope i can get my average GPA of 3.3 to 3.5..
sighs..
baby..
without you in my class..
i feel so dead la..
my kai xin guo not around wor..
i miss you...
Will these make me feel better?
Blogged by.. shane @ 19:22
it has been quite some time since i update le..
sighs..
too many things happened le..
firstly,
busy with TEP presentations and handover sessions..
den need to prepare all the STUPID STUFF..
secondly,
start of a new semester..
need to prepare the study materials..
etc etc...
thirdly,
my life in a mess AGAIN!!!
DARN!!!
i really don't know what i really want...
i really don't know what i am doing..
I'M JUST AT A LOST AGAIN..
sighs..
yesterday was the start of the new semester..
but something struck me in the afternoon..
clara called and told me that our supervisor wants us to recalled back the names or description of the cashiers of all 44 outlets..
in other words..
IT'S 88 SURVEYS IN ALL!!!
the DARN problem is that the surveys was done like ONE MONTH AGO...
how the hell am i suppose to recall all of them and write them down..
my team and i are not computer hard drive memory..
WE ARE NOT CAPABLE OF HAVING SUPER MEMORY!!!
sOo...
i went to find him at around 4 plus..
he just simple told me that he need to attend a meeting in 50sec time..
WHAT THE F***!!!!!
he suggested that i meet him today at 1330..
fine!!
i went up to look for him at 1335...
HE WAS NOT IN HIS OFFICE!!!
i waited for him until 1350...
i was soO PISSED!!!
so i decided to go for my lecture...
he was 'GOOD' enough to send me an email saying:
'Sorry, about today's meeting, but had to attend a lecture from 1pm to 2pm. So with regard to up-dating all the 88 survey forms for both rounds, can your team input the Section C cashier details for September 2006. Please let me know ASAP as I need to get back to the client with a response..'
so now what?
WHAT AM I SUPPOSE TO DO?
AM I SUPPOSE TO SUMMON MY TEAM BACK TO GIVE HIM ALL THE NAMES/DESCRIPTIONS OF THE CASHIERS??
disappointed in him..
disappointed in myself too..
why cant i do a good job to avoid all these trouble?
DAMN!!!!
*sob sob*
Will these make me feel better?
Saturday, October 07, 2006
11:26
Blogged by.. shane @ 11:26
baby..
I'M SORRY!!
sorry to have made you cry..
i feel so guilty la..
i know its my fault..
sighs..
i felt like a fool..
i keep blaming myself..
esp..
the moment you said you dont wanna talk to me le..
i feel like dying la..
little did i know that you meant so much to me...
i know that the effort you put in for me is soO much..
you tried to pull me up again and again..
you were there for me when i needed you..
you acc me when i was down..
you bring colours to my life..
and just because i'm too controlled by my STUPID EMOTIONS..
i let you down..
i made you cry..
i made you feel like killing me..
i'm just an IDIOT!!!!
i cant afford to lose you..
you are my pillar..
now that i FINALLY willing to stretch out my hand..
are you willing to give me a pull?
this is the last chance i ever have..
i'm gonna treasure it!!
thanks baby for giving me this one last chance..
why am i so STUPID?
why must i wait till i've lost it den realised how much one meant to me?
why am i so SILLY?
i've lost it once..
not gonna let it happen again.
baby..
hope you're feeling better everyday.
must take good care of yourself k?
hope to see you soon..
miss you lots..
*hugs..
THANKS!!!
Will these make me feel better?
Thursday, October 05, 2006
19:24
Blogged by.. shane @ 19:24
WHAT A BAD DAY!!!
sighs..
SADDED!!!
supposed to have book tomorrow for a meeting to comfirm when to have the dry run..
but end up..
when i went up to SA Office
Mr Han was on leave..
so i went up to lina chong..
but GOD KNOW WHAT HAPPEN..
she told me that i need to get Mr Woon's signature before the proposal can be approved...
so..
in order not to delay the event any longer..
i went up to mr woon..
the first impression that i got from him was:
'i am not interested in your whatever event'
it's like..
what the fuck la!!!
DAMN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
what the hell is happening???
why must this setback come at time point in time?
i'm darn stressed up with all the presentations and report writing le..
I'M AT A LOST NOW..
I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO..
I NEED A BREAK!!!!!!!!
A LONG LONG BREAK!!!
trying my best to do things right and fast..
but why can't i excel in this field?
have i done anything wrong?
or rather..
why is almost everyone looking down on the ability of SW students?
we not only play sports...
we study..
we fight for the best..
we are in fact ALL ROUNDER!!!
good results always come from SW class..
good respond always come from SW class..
though we are naughty..
we like to fool around..skipping lectures..
but we still get our stuff done!
we still give the best presentations..
we still give the best outfit..
(usually we dress up in tee shirt and shorts)
we fulfilled all the requirements of a ALL ROUNDER and excellent student model..
but WHY THE HELL..
cant SOME of them understand that???
you can doubt my ability..
my capability..
but..
YOU CANT DOUBT MY CLASS!!
YOU CANT JUDGE THE BOOK BY ITS COVER!!
i may look like a slacker..
but deep down..
who knows that i'm actually fighting for my right?
fighting to give the best to my team members..
fighting hard to give the best to my classmates and friends..
WHO KNOWS?
though i admit that sometimes..
i do judge people on the surface..
this is something i'm trying to change now..
i will and WILL do it!!
sighs..
what i can do now is wait..
mr guru, mr wee, ms lina chong is trying hard to help me..
to battle for me..
to help me thru..
THANKS SAO!!!
one thing for sure..
i will not let you guys done..
so long as there's event planning and stuff..
do count me in..
i wil give my best..
to being out the BEST IN ME!!
ARGH~~~~
well..
wait wait wait..
*holy shit!!!
baby is sick wor..
worried..
hope baby will have a speedy recovery k?
how i wish baby was with me today la..
but it's alright..
should learn to stand on my own!!
baby..
remember to take ur medicine on time..
hope to see you tml..
i'm missing you lots!!!
*hugs..
Will these make me feel better?
Monday, October 02, 2006
10:42
Blogged by.. shane @ 10:42
sighs~
SIANZ..
yesterday was like..
baby met met me at northpoint..
went down to mac to agitate her..
ha..
i feel bad la..
but come to think about it..
maybe this is the best way for the both of us lo..
at least this shows that i'm actually far BETTER OFF WITHOUT HER!!
she can now go after him le..
now leave me alone!!
i wanan lead a NEW life of my OWN!!
she is bothering me too much..
she was like saying..
or rather..
telling me off..
stop calling her bao bei and stuff..
keep telling me to call baby my bao bei instead..
what the..
i mean..
deep down..
not many know that it has been a long long time since i put on a smile from my heart..
the hurt that she caused..
the pain that she left here..
is just so UNBEARABLE!!
sometimes i was wondering..
how can i smile from my heart again?
is there a cure to it?
forcing a smile is hard..
hiding the feelings is even harder..
as i think back of the days we have had..
it was just so wonderful..
but..
there's no turning back..
though i wish there is..
but the harsh reality tells me that there isn't any..
and WILL NEVER BE..
i'm slowly accepting this fact..
knowing that time heals everything..
even the hurt i feel...
A fragile heart was broken before
I don't think it could endure another pain
But there's a voice from deep inside of me
That's calling out to make me realize
That this new bond gives inspiration
To all who feel no love appeal no more
So how can anyone break this wall around me
That's aiding my heart to grow in pain
So forget my past and i can dream tomorrow
Save my hearts for care and lovin' too
It's hard, I know, but oh one thing's for sure
Don't go and break this fragile heart.
A hurting mind in need of emotion
I don't think I could endure another pain
But baby in you, I've found affection
Affection I have never felt before
So don't let my past destroy what comes tomorrow
Don't go and break my fragile heart
With all this fire that burns between us
There's so much to lose
Yet so much more to gain
And if I could, choose the world around me
The world I'd choose would all revolve around myself
So help me complete the game inside me
And help me to mend ,
to mend this fragile heart.
Will these make me feel better?
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