I could still recall, those memories of you,
The joy and all your laughter,
The love that we've been through.
and I still can't believe you're gone...
I don't want to remember,
The things we used to do,
I don't want to hear those songs,
All the things that reminds me of you.
I don't wanna feel the pain in my heart anymore!
Talking to myself, for reasons I can't find.
Finding out why everything went wrong.
I've been trying to hold.
the tears from falling down on my cheeks,
I just dunno if I could still go on.
I wanted you to stay,
The tears began to show,
You said you care for me,
But then you have to go
And now I know, you're gone.
ME Shane?
1st Mar
Singapore Youth Olympic Games Organising Committee
damn!! don't know what happened today.. really not my day i guess.. sighs.. this morning came in, server down! then wasted an hour plus trying to open my lotus notes and get online..
then at least got some work to do while we waited for IT to solve the problem.. helped Diana to edit the FAQs for the CAN! Run.. log on to www.singapore2010.sg to find out more!! hahas..
then when i managed to open my email.. i saw something that i feel it's so D.U.M.B!!! of course i will be tired.. but that does not mean that the rest wouldn't get tired.. we are helping out because we want to be involved.. that simple.. i know maybe you're just concern.. yes.. i can understand that.. but have you spare a thought for those who have been out there all the way? they will also get tired de ma.. right? sighs.. those who know what happened will know what I'm talking about..
I'm really just doing my part here and it seems like I've been thrown around.. i know i don't belong to any specific teams now and i don't mind helping out.. but sad to say.. i lost my identity.. sighs.. what to do.. no degree! have working experience but not recognize!! sighs.. so ppl out there!! must study hard and get a degree if you wanna survive in SG!! jiayou ba!!
k la.. enough of throwing out the rubbish!! need to go and draft sponsorship letter and get some things cleared before they are back from their meetings..
dragged myself to work today. so sian!! sighs.. already in holiday mood.. but anyway.. I'm still here to work..
apparently, I'm still not well.. hahas.. still having blocked nose and abit sore throat.. sighs.. sadded..
well.. sort of finished the FAQs for the CAN! Run.. but still feel that there are still questions that i have yet to put in.. alot of question marks now.. later afternoon still have to go for meeting.. hopefully can go off on time lo..
I'm tired.. guess not enough sleep ba.. some thoughts about this Christmas.. - quite fun.. stayed home.. because kids came over to have lunch.. though it was bored in the afternoon after gossiping.. but we kinda enjoyed ourselves with Jeffery (Rachel's brother) around.. he is so funny.. small size and cute lo.. lol..
rayson and me did something fun and crappy.. we created 'snow'.. haha.. process was tedious.. cause it's by hand.. but when we did the pulley thingy, it failed.. cause we did not have enough time to complete the task.. but hope they like it.. =)
rayson --> must jiayou wor!! hahas..
k la.. need to do some shit work le.. sighs.. what a boxing day!
sighs.. i hate the feeling of having flu..stupid lo.. my nose is like running tap now and my eyes are so sleepy.. sighs.. going to see doc later after lunch lo..
which means maybe i not meeting the kids le lo.. =( so sick.. sighs.. how i wish i can recover fast lo.. if not next week jiu Christmas le lo.. don't wanna be sick during festive seasons.. sighs..
i made someone scare and angry wor.. just because i said somethings that i think i shouldn't have put it across so bluntly lo.. sighs.. i know the choice is in me.. i have the right to choose what i want.. but i just wanted to share with you what was mentioned.. but little did i know that I've hurt you.. I'm sorry.. i didn't mean to hurt you yet again..
suddenly, i just feel so useless again! DAMN!! what the hell is wrong with me now? why cant i screen my questions or what i want to say before telling them bluntly to you? sighs.. i guess i have hurt you deeply.. besides sorry, i really don't know what i can say le.. really so shity now..
I'm already old enough to know what is right and wrong.. and yet i can make sure a big mistake.. sighs.. really damn myself!!! sighs.. really hope you can forgive me..
a quick update on what's happening.. i'm on MC on Tuesday.. cause of food poisoning.. guess ate something wrong ba.. then til now, my stomach is still fighting inside.. despite eating all the med that was given by the doc.. sighs.. yesterday was on course.. went for the standard english and singlish communication.. it was kinda funny. til then i realised that there are times when we actually forget the standard english of some words as we are so used to speaking singlish every other day.. lol.. good lesson!
dont really feel very well now to continue working leh.. but still have to work lo.. got things to do.. helping out with the runners' workflow now.. hopefully can give them a detail tasks to assign to the respective universities..
looking forward to tml.. maybe meeting my kids for dinner.. hee.. then they can make me laugh again.. omg!! i cant take it anymore.. my stomach is really fighting hard now.. lol.. i think i should go get the business done first..
hope you people are enjoying your holidays now.. i want my holidays too!! =(
okay.. I'm bored.. was slacking for the past week.. feel kinda bad.. but nothing was given leh..ha.. anyway.. managed to get some stuff to do.. though it was kinda last min.. but at least there's sth for me to do..
helping my dy head out on the run route and sports tryout.. guess it will be sth that will benefit me in the long run ba.. at least i get to learn how to plan a run route and what are the things that i need to note while planning for such a thing lo.. though the meeting will be like 1600.. and i really have to slack lo.. argh!
one more thing.. I'm missing someone right now.. well.. for my kids who is reading my entry now will know who I'm missing.. as for the rest.. it's for me to know and you to find out.. lol..
hopefully the meeting later can end early lo.. then i can go meet up with my kids to go shopping and have a quick update lo..haha..
think I'm going for lunch soon le.. shall stop here then.. Monday blues.. sian!
done with what i need to do already.. so i guess just slack awhile first lo.. after lunch then find something to do.. lol.. well..
heard some inside news about my work.. by moving forward.. I'm glad that i will be soon under some team's headcount.. rather than don't know where i belong to.. it's rather sad to know that i don't belong to any team for now.. but what can i do? sighs..
i really know how important that shit of paper means when it comes to government job.. but apparently, the head of the house doesn't.. keep saying why should i study so much.. sighs.. but nonetheless, that will not stop me from furthering my studies if i want to.. to me, with him or not, it doesn't really matter now.. I've started work already, i can slowly work my way out.. all he wants is just for me to repay him all the educational fees that he paid for.. this kinda of person! D.U.M.B!
waste my effort blogging about him man! lol.. rather blog about other stuff.. had basketball last night.. then realized that i pulled my quads.. but not that serious lo..still can walk..ha.. think i really need a pair of basketball shoes.. if not i don't know how many times more i will have to fall lo.. muhahaha..
i'm bored now.. really.. no leave to clear.. so sian.. if not can sleep all i want at home man.. ha.. k la.. think shall stop here and continue to dl my canto songs.. lol..
Yo.. I'm back to work again.. haha.. that 2.5 days like didn't rest enough lo.. cause my kids refuses to let me rest.. haha.. you know who you are.. lol.. but we managed to play like crazy.. the whole chalet became a gambling den lo..haha.. (well.. i did not play wor).. i was there to see water.. (in hokkien) lol..
played bowling like nobody business in the middle of the night.. cause we got free games ma.. though we didn't managed to go out to the beach, we still enjoyed ourselves.. ohh.. ya.. we drank like mad too.. but it doesn't make us drunk lo.. crap was what we did most of the time..
had pillow fight the first night.. well.. I'm not involved!! haha.. it was the kids.. i only watched and laugh lo..
BBQ was great! food was too much.. cause 3 of them didn't come wor.. the kids were so sad.. the whole night they were outside, waiting for you all.. keeping the food for you all lo.. but it's okay.. told them that you all were busy..
wanted to go sentosa after we checked out.. but by the time we were at vivo.. it started to rain cats and dogs.. so we changed our mind and headed back to woodlands.. then slack at my boy's house lo..haha.. then end up also didn't play bball.. cause all of them were tired...
if i know, today also take leave and slack at home lo.. abit sian today.. cleared most of my stuff.. but lazy to start on those that I've yet to touch.. ha.. later after work still have to head down to expo lo.. sian.. need to ownself go collect my race pack..
finally cleared most of my work le!!! haha.. had a long long November.. and it will be another long long December.. hahas.. but i sort of like it.. it's because I'm enjoying what I'm doing.. though at times.. i get very pissed at things.. but after awhile, it all goes back to normal..
it's a good opportunity for me to learn as much as i can in these 2 years.. really wanna excel and prove everyone that I'm capable.. i know things will not be as easy as what was mentioned and said.. but I'm willing to take the challenge and stand firm in what i believe i can do..
spoken to my director and another head.. they are satisfied with my attitude towards work.. which i feel it's a good start for me.. there are of course rooms for improvement lo.. need to start to go for courses to improve myself le.. also need to improve on my England.. lol..
going on leave for 2.5 days.. wanna rest.. everyone else is chiong-ing and I'm here resting.. haha.. so bad of me.. but to rest is to go further ma.. (a Chinese saying).. really wanna strive the best i can.. so that when i look back at the end of 2010, i know i have succeed..
well.. at the midst of working hard, i will not forget to play hard too.. ha.. that's why these 2.5 days, I'm gonna play til i drop with my kids!!!
this coming week is my run le.. really don't know if i can make it.. lol.. but should not be a problem lo.. ha.. hope my knee don't give way..
leaving in about an hours' time le.. cant wait.. ha..